Today is the 31st January 2009 . Though it's a Saturday, dear dear is back at camp for work due to lack of manpower . So i'm alone at home, surfing the net and doing nothing with my kaskade on . Oh . . . let me introduce you who is kaskade huh . Finally found my addiction of music falls under Deep House Electronica . And so far my favourite artist is kaskade . Gotta whole list of music at Myspace.com, so whenever i got my wireless connection up, music is definitely on . Love it to bits . =) . It's more of relaxing musics . . . chill out lounge kinda music . Text me if by any chance, anyone wansta try it . 

So was browsing friends' blog when i come to Anita's blog . She wansta get a bike license . Oh man, i want too, but i've already booked my car license practical, if not i'll sure go with her . I wanna have a bike license . I will get it after i got my class 3 . Speaking of which, Mom talked to me that day . Discussing with me if i wanna consider taking class 3A instead, because my god-dad said future cars are gonna be all automatic transmission . I know, not to wait till the future, a lotta drive only had auto gear these days already, not to mention what we have in the future . Well, despite that, i would still wanna take my class 3 . I'm a car fanatic, i know the basic pros and cons of each transmission . So i wanna have manual transmission next time i drive . If worse comes to worse, perhaps a car with tiptronic/steptronic transmission . 

Anyway, i'm starting my practical lessons coming Monday . =) . I'm so excited . Look forward to it . 

So bored at home . . . maybe i should start my revision . 

Gotta interview later at 5pm . Hope it has what i'm looking for . Wish me luck . Or if you have any job to introduce to me, i'll gladly consider . 

Just finished redesigning the look for our IS project . I hope it helps on my part of contribution . Because seriously i haven't done anything, you could say that i'm a free rider . I feel bad man . Really, Khng worked till late last night . =/ . Sorry . =/ . 

Okay, some expired photos last week when i took DAC/04 for reunion dinner at Ma Maison . =)

It's candle lit dinner . . . =) . 
It's a candle lit dinner with cocktails . 
And Nathan ordered a screwdriver, i ordered a Blue Lagoon . Man, it tasted like cough syrup !
I had my sirloin steak done medium rare while most of the rest had some rice which i forgotten what is was called . 
Oh yeah, and we've got Escargot for appetizer ! It's snails if you're wondering what it is . And it taste good . =) . That plate of powdery thing is where the plate of snails land with blue flames on it . Live cooked i think . 
See the red flames underneath the snails ? Cool eh ?
The flesh ! It's nice, but black though, looks gross, but taste nice . =)
Hong Choo, Adeline and Anita . They're girlfriends . =)
Me, Nathan and Shirley girlfriend . All posing as if we're digging our noses, but i pose as if i am going to dig it, didn't enter though, if i did i'll probably put the stuffs in my mouth . LOL ! Yeah right !
Formal shot ?
Willie, Amanda, Sharon, Hong Choo, Adeline and Anita . =) . 
And again ~
Adeline and Anita with the man hung on the wall ? =)
All of those who went . Front row from left to right : Shirley, Nathan, Me, Anita . Back row from left to right : Willie, Amanda, Sharon, Hong Choo and Adeline . 
Digging time ? Come on ! ! Roar ! 
Nathan and Shirley . What a look, Nathan . 
I got shot when i was trying to shoot . =)
Me, Nathan and Shirley . =)
Haha, aren't they very photogenic ?
MinPok, NehnehPok and SallyPok . 

What the hell am i doing ? ? ?

After dinner in the ladies, doing photo again . Woohoo . =) . Shirley girlfriend and me . 

And us again with our manicured pinky nails . 

That's all folks . =) . Time to get showered and revision ( if i'm in a good mood ) . Ciao and happy weekends . 

Today is the 30th January 2009 . Happy birthday, daddy . Although i've got no gifts for you, but from the bottom of my heart, i wanna wish you happy today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow and forever, because i love you . I know we should celebrate, the more when he's jobless now and that would probably cheer him up a little . It's just so different when each and everyone of us grow up . We would be so busy with our work till we can't take our time off for things like that . I still remember how we got gifts for mom and dad, hid it under their pillows till they find it just before they turn in - surprise that is . I still remember how we rush ourselves to save money and buy cakes, turn off the lights when mom and dad come home to give them a birthday surprise when they enter through the door . All of us, with them . No more now . 

Wentta dear dear's godparent's place last night, till 11pm plus when we left, went his house, got his things, and back to my house for the night . So i woke up late today, skipped class in the morning because i knew it was all about the FACC results we gonna get anyway . Forgot that i promised Khng to bring my charger for the break time to do IS, so sorry Khng . Anyway, wentta school at 2pm plus to meet my attachment officer, but was late . Haha, must say he's very friendly . Supposed to reach at 2pm, but i reached at 2.15pm plus minus . Haha . He said not to be late during my attachment . Was joking all the way, laughing and chatting . Totally not like an ''interview'' at all . So he told me i was suppose to report at 9am on my first day at work, be in office attire . Because i would be in the same company as Hong Ming, each of us would be assisting either the Deputy Director or the Chief Finance Officer . Sounds cool yeah . So the talk ended, got his cellphone number and he gave me his MSN address because he said just in case i don't wanna hear his voice, i could MSN him . Lol . 

Ended, i walked my way back to Business School, by passing FoodCourt 5 . I stopped by 7-11 for a drink . I couldn't decided what to get, until i realize i'm actually keeping my eye on Coke Zero . I hate the drink, i dislike the taste, but i bought it anyway . I can't help but to say i drink it not because i like it, but for the sake of missing you . I see it everywhere, 7-11, ColdStorage . . . reminds me of you and everything . And whenever i felt that my brain is gonna explode missing you, i find myself getting Coke Zero, be it can or bottle, and finishing it slow . I know i shouldn't be doing this, but somehow it just comes to me without me knowing it . It's still fresh in my mind, although it happened a year ago . And it totally pulls my mood down every single time i come to it . Sad, isn't it ? 

Back in Business School, i texted Shirley about her TP test . She failed, knocked down a pole while doing parking i guess . Tried to cheer her up . Hope she is now . 

Alright . . . i guess i'll just stop here . Blog again soon . 

Today is the 28th January 2009 . Hmmm . . . where should i start ? Haha, so many things i've recalled not blogging about . 

Okay, so i had my last day working at Double Bay the other day and everyone was asking me why i stopped working . Well, i said it's because of my attachment and bla bla bla . Even though i've only work for less than a month, it's something i've gain anyway, regardless of experience or friendship . Gotta find a really freelance job now, i must get my license and i must get my Apple MacBook Air . And i've planned that my entire attachment salary shall buy me a new phone . If i ever succeed on not using the salary, my new phone shall be a BlackBerry Bold . If not, then everything is just plain crap . I'm not hoping and i'm not sure i'll get the new phone, but it's more like a bonus if i get it . 

Back at school, everything seemed okay, except for the tax test the other day, flunk for sure, no second consideration if i get a just pass . Yeah, that bad . Mean while, for GEMS, to my honor, i'm grouped together with four Year three accountancy students, which brought me a 85/100 for GEMS CA1 and a 75/100 for GEMS CA2 . Thanks so much guys . =) . All else is okay, getting my FACC test results this Friday too, hope i pass with a B at least . Well well, i've tried . =/

Anyway, last Saturday, was out at St. James clubbing, celebrating Koh Jin's birthday at Boiler Room . Thank god it wasn't at Power House, if not i'm gonna be a sardine . Not that i'm sick of Power House, but it's simply too crowded till you have no room for movement nor dance . Till then you don't go there for clubbing, you go there for sardine-ing . Haha . Happy birthday again, Koh Jin . Though you puked on your birthday, but that's what normal birthday boys or girls get when they call for birthday in a club or pub, isn't it ? Haha . 

Sam, Koh Jin and dear dear . =) . Haha, i think Sam's fiancée is gonna get jealous over him kissing Koh Jin . Oh man . How gay ! ( Can i suppose that is what happen when a man gets high ? )

Haha, this is not my friend, this is just a photo of a random guy drunk and fell asleep on the stairs just at the entrance of Boiler Room . Poor thing man, where's his friends ? ( This tells you not to go drinking with friends that don't save you when you're in need of them . )

Loving myself in the ladies cubicle . LOL . 

Supposedly planned to go have prata as supper altogether after clubbing . But Koh Jin was drunk and puking, so it was cancelled . Only dear dear and me went . So dear dear took photo of me while we're waiting for our food . 

And again . . . 
And again . . . haha . Then had food and went home . 

So lunar new year came, and i had my hair dyed back the same color to touch up the roots . So did Er Jie . An un-glam photo of her with super Mom dyeing her hair while there's tonnes of house chores left undone . =P

La la la la la . . . . . . . 
Right, wentta dear dear's house and was shocked to see so many goodies laid on the table . And these have not include Ba Gua, cuttlefish and pineapple tarts . Man, it's so much ! 

Day before lunar new year, wentta Jiejie's place for drinking session with Double Bay colleagues till 2am plus . Didn't drink at all, just there to join in the crowd, haha . Told myself only to drink in a club because i'm sick of people thinking that i'm drunk when i'm not . Haha . I'm very fair okay, so just a sip of beer can get me all red up . So it's just best to drink in the club because it's dark and very few people can notice i'm red . =P

First day of lunar new year, dear dear came to my house early in the morning to bai nian to my parents, and dear dear drove us all to Grand dad's place at Hougang and went back to join his family . Hung out there for a while before we head off to Jiejie's place . Then dear dear came to meet me again . Wanted to catch the movie The Wedding Game, websites were too busy to serve . Guess a lot of people were gonna watch, so plan cancelled, i went over to his place to bai nian to his parents and he came over to my place for the night . 

Day two, i did my audit tutorial in the morning before i go anywhere else . So everything was done for the next schooling day . =) . Prouda that . Anyway, wentta Da Ah Gu's place and Da Gor Gor hadda new dog ! Too bad Er Jie and Jie Rui didn't wanna get near, else it would be fun . So Jun jun and me played with the dog . His name is Spike, and yes, it's a he . =) .  

So fun ! But i wonder if i can get a husky in future, because that's what i want . =/ . Right, gotta get my FACC tutorial done now . Blog again soon yeah ?

Ciao people . 

P.S. My addiction to clubbing is back . Man, but no one in my class can club till late . Or should i say no one in school that i know of ? I WANNA CLUB . =)

Today is the 21st January 2008 . 

Whatever is coming over me, please go away . It's my habits of skipping classes i used to have that keeps me failing, and it is my habits starting again that keeps me wondering if i can make it through this semester again . 

I don't know . It's gonna be tax CA2 tomorrow, and two tutorials are due too . I have did nothing at all so far . All i'm doing is deep house electronica and starring into space till i fell asleep on my sister's bed till 7.30pm . And oh, look, it's 8.33pm now . 

Like . . . i just skipped all classes today ? Shouldn't i be happier at home thinking that i have more time for tax revision ? 

Oh man, i feel like clubbing again, i feel like doing night walks again . 

What has gone into me ? 

"Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, to impress people they don't like."

Will Smith said it...

 

Today is the 14th January 2009 . I think i've just realized for the few previous post i wrote in as year 2008 . But nevermind, as long as i know it . Just came back from BBDC, i have had my PDL applied . 

Dad drove me there, been a long time since i sat behind him on a bike . I thought back to when i was still young, when we first moved here, granny was still living over at Bukit Batok, so all of us were running two and fro visiting granny now and then . It was that time when i sat on dad's bike often . 

I miss those young days, when we play all we want, when we live just next to granny and see her every single day . When we all sat outside the front door watching granny do yam cake . We played hop-scotch, catching, we visited Gong-bi uncle and his door, we ran up and down the corridor . It was so fun . Though we were poor, we don't have much toys, but we always play in the afternoon, and watch television as a family at night . Where were those days ? Will it ever happen again ? I guess not . 

Today is the 14th January 2008 . Yesterday was bad . 

People were right, the more you expect, the greater disappointment you would feel . I thought i would get through the interview at ducktours . Well, just because i passed the first interview i thought i could do the same when second time comes . Too nervous, forgot everything i wanna say, totally screwed it up . Screwed up one good job . So now, gotta find new ones . 

Took the train home while sms-ing dear dear, he didn't go for range (shooting) and is in class, so bla bla bla, chatting, listening to music, till i reached my station and alighted . Supposedly to take a bus home, but i thought it has been a long time since i walked home . So i did, strolled home, shut off my music, looking at cars, fortunate drivers, and the sky . Though i always took strolls after midnight because it's more quiet, but i guess it's good enough to compensate the quietness for the long time i missed strolling . Got home, boot up my computer and started looking for a job . 

I know very well i should be doing tutorials, but it's audit, all copy work, theory, i could finished it in less than an hour, or perhaps 30 minutes . So job hunting for the moment . I must say there're lotsa online home based jobs, but ain't gonna believe it anyway . The reason why i'm desperate for a job even though it's exam period now is because

1. Dad's jobless

2. Mom's only working part-time

3. Lotsa bills to be paid, school allowance to me, sis and bro, and housing loan and whatever shit

4. Sis is desperate for phone, don't want her to wait too long

5. Start of school term, sis and bro have much school stuffs to get

6. My license

I know some of those are meant to be waited, but it just shows how desperate one can get over some stuffs . I don't know, it's like all these while . . . what have i been doing ? I thought i was stronger ? I thought i'm okay with things ?

Woke up at 7am this morning, did audit tutorial, finished it, went back to sleep . All i wish i could do is to turn on lush and lay on my bed for the rest of my life . . . think of nothing . Totally no mood for school today, skipped all lectures and tutorials . Woke up at 11.30am, cleared my table and started doing a collage of Ethan . Thought by doing that i could feel better . Here it is : -

Framed it up, ready to be hung nicely, till Dad comes home and do the hook . I don't know . It's like that's the only answer i'm left with now, no matter what question is posted to me, no matter who asked it . 

Trust me on this, my body might not be with you, but my heart is . No matter what i did, who i'm with, what happens, it's all trust that matters - nothing else . Because to the end of the day, you know i'll choose you . 

Today is the 13th Jan 2008 . Supposed to have FACC test today, but i took MC and went for Ducktours interview . Though i got the news very last minute, i don't mind, as long as i get the job . But i failed to get it . 

So many things happening at the same time, i don't know how should i react . 

I wouldn't regret marrying to you, but i'm afraid you might regret marrying to me . Think and think again . It's the devil you're marrying, not anyone else . 

Today is the 12th January 2008 . Hadda class photo taking session in school, but i wore what i wear as usual, nothing special . Wore a little make up these few days, and it made me think back of how i used to be . What makes me think back that you may wonder ? The smell of my foundation from the make-up store together with my Christian Dior J'adore L'absolu perfume and the songs i used to listen to every single day repeatedly . These three things were what i always had on me during my devil time . And so i was wearing it today and listening to it coincidentally, recalled so many things, so many people, so many events/accidents/misfortune/my most stupid moment, and also my first time being so comfortable with a man - a real man, grown up matured man . But ah, that's a past, i shall, yet again, try to forget it, or rather, bury it under to the back of my memory . 

Supposed to work tonight, but i called in and told them about my test tomorrow so i hope to cancel my shift tonight . And i did, with a little nagging/scolding or whatever you call it . I'm planning to quit this job, soon . Get to it after i'm done with being busy . 

Celebrated Nicholas Choong's 20th Birthday that day . =) . I'm so glad to see Saturday CYAs again, although not all, but at least some . 

Ate at Ma Maison for dinner, and went to KTV for celebration after that . And this is the cake that i bought for Nicholas . =)

We lid up the cake at 12 midnight, and i brought the cake into the room to Nicholas . =)
He's laughing like mad ?
Okay for a while . . . 
And laughing again . . . 
Took a picture with me because i was handling the cake . =)
Franko and Nicholas with us singing the birthday song . 
Usual procedures . . . use your teeth to remove the candles from the cake . 
Look at his expression ! !
Cut the cake . 

Ate the cake, some of us had beer, and this is Jia Wei high-ing after taking the beer . 
So i high with him since i had some beer too . Haha . 
Si Leng and Dawn . . .
Nicholas and Derek . =) 
Nicholas can't drink, so got a little unpleasant after sips of Heneiken . =)
And he slept, without knowing what happened to him . Wahahahahaha . 
Me ( trying to cover up ), Si Leng and Dawn . =)
It's a nice day to see you guys, i really hope we could get together like this more often . =) . 

Alright, gotta go now, getting tutorials done . Blog again soon . Have a good day people . 

P.S. I can't help but to miss him and not you . As always, devil does the wrongs .